I hope you read this.

And so, I thought I had moved on. I stopped stalking your Facebook, but whenever I sees the news feed, your news appeared, I would click and view it. I tired to stop staring at your photos, but I realized I can't. I deleted all of your photos, whatsapp, SMS, talk box, viber but still. I even deleted your notes. That was the best memories. I didn't back up our notes. And yeah, I missed it now. I want everything back. I don't understand why. I started drinking because I thought that would make me forget about you. But I was wrong, it actually made me miss you even more. I stopped and started smoking, my friend passed it to me, and I started for a few weeks, and I realized its actually very stupid. Why am I even hurting myself? So I stopped everything and began to stay "happy". I put on a smile everyday. I don't understand why after so long. It's been 3 months since we contact, but why do I still miss you sometimes. Like seriously? WHY?! I can see that you had actually moved on, but why can't I? I feel so stupid.

I didn't say I miss you, I didn't say I want you back, I didn't say I still love you, I didn't say I still hasn't move on, I didn't tell you all these. Why? Simple. It's because I know you won't change. Yes I know you're not a good guy, you're not the one I want, you're not my type. Nobody's perfect. I understand that. But we spent 8 months together. All those memories. Can you teach me how did you manage to move on and forget about everything? Can you teach me? I really wanna learn it badly!

I went to the place that we always go, as I looked around, my tears dropped. What was on my mind? "do I really have to come here alone? All by myself? This late at night?"

When I was searching for my thumb drive that night, I found our couple necklace, shirt. I even found our photos! You remember during my birthday last year? You gave me flowers and also a badge with your photo? Yeah I still have that with me. It's still inside my drawer. I took it out and looked. While looking, I realized how much I had "moved on" oh well.

All the songs in my iPhone, you should come and listen to it.

Current mood : it's time to wake up!!!